Determination, Struggles, and Victories

So this is not my typical blog post. And quite honestly it scares me to death to write about something so personal.  I have never been one to share personal struggles with anyone more than my close family and friends.  But for some reason I felt like I wanted to share a little more with my followers and let you guys all into my life.  Being vulnerable is more than hard for me but I think at this point I am ready to share everything and have people who understand to talk to about it. 
I have always loved working out and being active! It has always been a fun habit that I never struggled with and I loved to try new workouts and healthy recipes, ya know all that good stuff. But the truth is it has been more of a struggle for me lately and also a lot more necessary because we have been struggling with infertility. Just typing it out makes my stomach turn.  It has been a long road, and I didn't even know there was such a thing as secondary infertility.  Which basically means that after having a completely normal and easy pregnancy before doesn't mean that it is going to happen again. We have always imagined our life with about 3 children and having them all close in age so they could be best buds. But life changed that for us and we are working towards getting a solution.  
We have been through rounds and rounds of Clomid, a miscarriage and then more and more Clomid, and a few other drugs.  I can tell you it takes a toll on your body.  My body doesn't respond to workouts like it should when I am taking all these hormones and I think it makes it a lot harder to deal with it emotionally as well.  
Finally after 2 years of this vicious cycle we decided it was best to see a Specialist here in Texas.  It was a scary move to make for me, to think, wow this is actually happening. As if it didn't register this last year.. And also a high sense of relief thinking we finally might get an answer, and eventually another baby.
So here I am spilling it all out to you.  When I was asked to post about working out and exercising it just seemed right to talk about the struggles that I am going through right now. And how truly staying active has helped me.   The hormones have caused weight gain, so I have needed a little more motivation to really push myself even if I might not see results as quickly as I normally would.  I have found a few things that have pushed me harder and no surprise I love me some good active wear. So I wanted to share those with you as well below. 
I would love to hear any advice any of you might have for me and I plan to keep you all posted on the journey we will be taking from here on out. Love you all and thank you for following.  
 My motivation must haves below 
My first workout must have, has to be an amazing pair of headphones. I am the type that literally will turn around and go home if I have forgotten them. My all time favorites are these "Sudio Sweden Vasa Blas."  They are Stylish, Wireless, and amazing quality. 
My Second motivation lately is some fresh new Sneakers!

And last but not least activewear, which has come a long way lately! There are so many darling lines now that you can honestly take from the gym to the street! Which I do pretty much every day.

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1 comment:

  1. Thank you for sharing with all of us! You inspire me and many others to keep trying and knowing that we all have struggles in our lives somewhere. No one is immune to the challenges and heartbreak that life can spring on to us. I just know in my heart that you will have more babies one day!! This challenge in life is building a strong character and patience that would otherwise be impossible to obtain. I love you so much and know that there is a greater purpose for our struggles then we can understand!! I know soon a new little precious one will be on the way!! Love you!! ❤️❤️❤️